Hi.
I came back here right after I finished crying, which is for almost one hour.
Crazy.
I know.
My head was empty, I can’t think straight and definitely not in a good condition.
I thought 2021 will be a good year. But can you imagine that we need to face another year of lockdown??
wanted to write more, but I just can't.
I'm just so sick of all of this.
I'm not sure how a writer can start their introduction whenever they want to start writing. But as for me, I find it quite difficult but I will keep on writing. Hopefully it will help me after this. I think I used to like writing so much but everything is now gone :(
Gone with the wind or gone because I don’t have the courage to do it? I need to find the answer for myself. Hmmph.
Okay, now back to our title for this post. For the past two weeks, in mid September, I feel like I want to change. I want to be good, I want to be better and of course for myself. I just came to realise that at my age right now, I have yet to achieve anything :( I'm not able to find what I want in my life. Sad, isn't? I'm having a very deep conversation with myself, all the self thought and deep down I need the change in my life.
I'm glad that I followed N**lofa's channel on Telegram. Back then I don't even bother to really 'read' it. It is not wrong to follow someone for something good right? Kebaikan menuju jalan Allah, wasn't beautiful? I'm not trying to change myself drastically, but insyaAllah slowly. Ya Allah, please help me. Make me feel better and be better. Amin, insyaAllah.
Until next time. See you again :)
